At the Crossroads

So, here I stand. I am at a major crossroads trying to ascertain which is the correct course I should next plot for my life. If my decision only affected myself it would be easy. I could risk rushing down some pathways that almost seemed one hundred percent correct when I started down them, only to discover that whatever method I used to determine their veracity or whatever council I sought was as accurate as I was eager to get started or maybe I just heard what I wanted to hear. But I would have the luxury to go, "Oops!" and just correct my course. But, now making a wrong choice in course affects far more than just me and correcting course involves more than just wiping the proverbial egg off of my face and correcting course.

I feel like I have an idea of what the "Big Picture" is, but I am only getting to see the paint by numbers version and somebody has sneakily hidden away the color key, so I have to earnestly seek out wise council and spend lots of patient time in prayer and preparation to figure out that key on my own. I want to scream, "That's not fair!" I have been pursuing this calling for nearly two-thirds of my life and God has just changed the game plan. Why should I have to wait any longer? But, if that is the plan in the pursuit of the "something greater", then that is what I will have to endure and I will have to learn to draw on the patience he has been trying to teach me in this long time in the wasteland because I surely don't want to ask to be taught to receive any more.

So, once again, I am standing at this crossroad wondering what path I should head down next. I do know that with what God is calling me to next I am going to have to return to school and the local university offers classes that could assist me in reaching my goals, so taking a few classes there to start with would be a safe step until more clarity comes. I also think it would be wise to just jump in and start working on some small projects with a few kids and see how things grow from there.

I really need to find a few mentors and a team of people to believe in my vision and become a prayer support team for me. I can't see myself going forward without that being place. After that, I need to be sewing fruit into someone else's life or I am going to continue to wither on the vine.

If you happen to have stumbled across this blog, wow, I really just put it up for myself. I figured my wife would be the only other person to read it. It was more therapy than anything else. But, if you are reading this and you have gotten this far, I would like to invite you to join with me and grab ahold of this vision of using the emerging internet media outlets that today's youth are exceedingly becoming connected to at an increasingly alarming rate for God's glory, instead of the personal self-destruction and interpersonal disconnect we already see becoming pandemic. Join by praying that this vision will become a reality in this generation.


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